Each artist has the same problem: we have to translate
something onto the canvas that is in our heads. This problem fascinated me when
I was having an art block. It’s easy to see what you want to paint, its hard to
get it onto the canvas. Why such confusion in translation? IDK.

I do meditation to unravel problems. I live life in a very
sharp way despite being constantly distracted with 1600 different daily recipes
to cure cancer and things to enrich a cats life. Which places I should see
before I’m dead and different ways to work out. All of that extra input gets reversed
when you go down, meditate and pull everything out with your mind during a
relaxing meditation. It becomes the 90’s again. I can play. I can see and I can
be very comfortable.

And I can also address the square that I must put something
in.

My father was an engineer and my mother was a brilliant businesswoman.
A few years back I decided to “address the square” as a structural idea. To
play within it to fill it up with the ideas. And as time has passed, I’ve had
time to realize what I like and don’t like about my ideas and how they fill up
squares. Too many ideas are too much. There needs to be a more streamlined
vision!

Color was my next issue. I get stuck on colors because some
honestly look better than others when being hung in a room. The crazy colors
are a hard fight that I’ve been fighting since I started painting in 1990. There
are somethings I have learned. Most recently I have learned that I cannot make
a low contrast painting. I can also not make one with all dull colors. This
makes for an interesting problem when furnishing a house with all bright
artwork. How do I make paintings that will take over a wall, with my fewer ideas,
address the square, now bring these wild colors to that table and satisfy my
overall vision, the amount and types of shapes I need and make myself happy?

During a meditation tonight, I think I unraveled the next
series of paintings. The last ones weren’t bad and I could do them forever. I
might still, who knows. I had this vision, however, of double images, abstract
atmospheres contained within structures that separated them. With VERY cold
colors fighting each other, minimal shapes/elements and they all stuck out to
me as really eye-catching. I was brin testing them during meditation, which I do.
It was a polishing of the images I saw during my last bowl session.

If you’re using less elements, something has to give to
balance it. I will be working to strengthen the next set within Illustrator within
the next few weeks. I’m very excited to fight with myself, my old art language,
over many cups of tea and the computer over that time!

My best friend is in labor tonight and will be a mother by
tomorrow afternoon. I just birthed new images in my mind. It’s a Valentine’s
Day extravaganza!